Saturday, November 23, 2013

..a few months later..


"lepas ni, lepas kita berpisah,
perlu ke sy terus brcerita..?"

"maksud awk?"

"yela..perlu ke sy share tntg diri sy,
khdupan sy dgn awk..mngadu apa2 ke.."

"eh,mestilaahh..awk kn kwn sy..
nnti sy sunyi.."

***
..i miss my laughing...
i miss my tears..
i miss my own smiling..
not bcoz i didn't have dat,
since we'v being far.
its just bcoz..
evrything's running
without you now!
='(



..keep movin' forward,we don't have much time..
keep running..chaiyyok!

Thursday, November 14, 2013

..the end to begin..


..continue

..should be yesterday is the last day
speding time with them.
felt so much feeling
listening to what they really feel
to have me as their part of..learning guider..

"cikgu,jgnla pindah.."
"cikgu,i really need you next year.."
"cikgu, mngajarlah sini lg tahun depan.."

..
yes..
even though they already called me
'cikgu'
but i think i'm still too young to be..
a teacher.
i'm a learner
i'm learning from them everyday
being a teacher for not more than a month
doesn't actually enough for me
to be a 'teacher'.
i admitted,teaching d secondary student
is not as easy,
as taking care of kids.


there must be no scolding,
screaming,
shouting,
'body touch'
err..maksudnya..
memukul,merotan,mencubit..
wlaupun ak saloo kne mase sek men dulu
huu~ nakalnye!~_~"

..A student said to me,
"cikgu,marahla kuat sikit.."
i just gave her a smile
soory,
i didn't know how to do it..
then d other said,
"cikgu marah pn senyum.."
then again,
everybody laugh..


emm..
mgkin ak trlalu rendah
atau trlalu lembut
atau trlalu ayu
atau trlalu xreti sbnarnya haha..
its remind me something,
crite dulu2
wktu interview jd guru
utk course pndidikan UPU
they ask me,
what will u do,
facing with student who
taller than u,
rough,and naughty....??



..the question make me smile today,
i faced it..
and yes,
u can't answer that question until
now,u know how it is..

..Alhamdulillah,without realise,
i actually moved to the next stage,
baby,kids,
teenagers..and
its all gave a thousand great feeling..
thanks Allah,
for this continuos learning..
i need it..for my entire life!



..drive balik dgn berjuraian air mata..
again...haish!sakitnya..T_T
nurul..nurul..

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

..the best feeling..



Waking up I see that everything is okThe first time in my life and now it's so greatSlowing down I look around and I am so amazedI think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about itThis is the best feeling

This innocence is brillianceI hope that it will stayThis moment is perfectPlease don't go awayI need you nowAnd I'll hold on to itDon't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tearThe first time in my life and now it's so clearFeel calm, I belong, I'm so happy hereIt's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about itThis is the best feeling

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreamingIt's the happiness inside that you're feelingIt's so beautiful it makes you wanna cryIt's a state of bliss, you think you're dreamingIt's the happiness inside that you're feelingIt's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cryThis innocence is brillianceMakes you wanna cryThis innocence is brilliancePlease don't go awayCus I need you nowAnd I'll hold on to itDon't you let it pass you by


..i just hope it won't last,
but i don't have choice..
continue..


Thursday, November 7, 2013

..silent please..



..bilik guru bingit
 dgn hiruk pikuk suara2 pndidik 
yg saling brinteraksi
dek ketidakpuasan hati dgn isu msg2
emm..ak mmg xleh komen lbh2
bcoz i'm not in their shoes
i can't even try 
to feel the same way
but it might be same if..

..bl diam tu smmgnya lbh baek,
brckp mmg bl prlu je..
sbb prkataan kta yg pnuh emosi
acap kali slalu mnzahirkn kjahilan kta sndiri
malu x..
bl dlm diam,
si cerdik pndai d skkling kta
yg diam sribu bhasa
mmbuat ksimpulan
tntg diri kta..
yg tnpa kta sedar 
kta ni brmuka2
brtalam dua muka
brtalam2 pn ada..


..ak blajar se suatu,
kt org trganu:
bkn skdr se..
tp lbh dr se..
ksilapan org2 yg kita lht
d skkeliling kita
sbnrnya adlh pngajaran..
n tarbiah buat kita!
hadiah dr Allah tuk kta^_^

..bdk2 ngah exam..chiyyoookkk!!!!

..hobi,hobby and hobbies..

permulaan yg mnyenangkan..