..a few months later..

"lepas ni, lepas kita berpisah,

perlu ke sy terus brcerita..?"

"maksud awk?"

"yela..perlu ke sy share tntg diri sy,

khdupan sy dgn awk..mngadu apa2 ke.."

"eh,mestilaahh..awk kn kwn sy..

nnti sy sunyi.."

***

..i miss my laughing...

i miss my tears..

i miss my own smiling..

not bcoz i didn't have dat,

since we'v being far.

its just bcoz..

evrything's running

without you now!

='(

..keep movin' forward,we don't have much time..

keep running..chaiyyok!

..the end to begin..

..continue

..should be yesterday is the last day

speding time with them.

felt so much feeling

listening to what they really feel

to have me as their part of..learning guider..

"cikgu,jgnla pindah.."

"cikgu,i really need you next year.."

"cikgu, mngajarlah sini lg tahun depan.."

..

yes..

even though they already called me

'cikgu'

but i think i'm still too young to be..

a teacher.

i'm a learner

i'm learning from them everyday

being a teacher for not more than a month

doesn't actually enough for me

to be a 'teacher'.

i admitted,teaching d secondary student

is not as easy,

as taking care of kids.

there must be no scolding,

screaming,

shouting,

'body touch'

err..maksudnya..

memukul,merotan,mencubit..

wlaupun ak saloo kne mase sek men dulu

huu~ nakalnye!~_~"

..A student said to me,

"cikgu,marahla kuat sikit.."

i just gave her a smile

soory,

i didn't know how to do it..

then d other said,

"cikgu marah pn senyum.."

then again,

everybody laugh..

emm..

mgkin ak trlalu rendah

atau trlalu lembut

atau trlalu ayu

atau trlalu xreti sbnarnya haha..

its remind me something,

crite dulu2

wktu interview jd guru

utk course pndidikan UPU

they ask me,

what will u do,

facing with student who

taller than u,

rough,and naughty....??

..the question make me smile today,

i faced it..

and yes,

u can't answer that question until

now,u know how it is..

..Alhamdulillah,without realise,

i actually moved to the next stage,

baby,kids,

teenagers..and

its all gave a thousand great feeling..

thanks Allah,

for this continuos learning..

i need it..for my entire life!

..drive balik dgn berjuraian air mata..

again...haish!sakitnya..T_T

nurul..nurul..

..the best feeling..

Waking up I see that everything is okThe first time in my life and now it's so greatSlowing down I look around and I am so amazedI think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about itThis is the best feeling

This innocence is brillianceI hope that it will stayThis moment is perfectPlease don't go awayI need you nowAnd I'll hold on to itDon't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tearThe first time in my life and now it's so clearFeel calm, I belong, I'm so happy hereIt's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about itThis is the best feeling

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreamingIt's the happiness inside that you're feelingIt's so beautiful it makes you wanna cryIt's a state of bliss, you think you're dreamingIt's the happiness inside that you're feelingIt's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cryThis innocence is brillianceMakes you wanna cryThis innocence is brilliancePlease don't go awayCus I need you nowAnd I'll hold on to itDon't you let it pass you by

..i just hope it won't last,

but i don't have choice..

continue..

..silent please..

..bilik guru bingit

 dgn hiruk pikuk suara2 pndidik 

yg saling brinteraksi

dek ketidakpuasan hati dgn isu msg2

emm..ak mmg xleh komen lbh2

bcoz i'm not in their shoes

i can't even try 

to feel the same way

but it might be same if..

..bl diam tu smmgnya lbh baek,

brckp mmg bl prlu je..

sbb prkataan kta yg pnuh emosi

acap kali slalu mnzahirkn kjahilan kta sndiri

malu x..

bl dlm diam,

si cerdik pndai d skkling kta

yg diam sribu bhasa

mmbuat ksimpulan

tntg diri kta..

yg tnpa kta sedar 

kta ni brmuka2

brtalam dua muka

brtalam2 pn ada..

..ak blajar se suatu,

kt org trganu:

bkn skdr se..

tp lbh dr se..

ksilapan org2 yg kita lht

d skkeliling kita

sbnrnya adlh pngajaran..

n tarbiah buat kita!

hadiah dr Allah tuk kta^_^

..bdk2 ngah exam..chiyyoookkk!!!!

..hobi,hobby and hobbies..

permulaan yg mnyenangkan..